A Classic Case of Cabin Fever
Well I would never have thought I would say this but: I am finding it strange to have so much time these days. It’s only been a week since I’ve left my role of three years and with two short freelance projects under my belt already, having a lot more free time than I used to recently is well… confusing. I can’t explain it much better than that but I hope some of you will know what I mean.
Up until last Friday, I was working full-time and constantly trying to fit in blogging, dance class, reading, guitar-playing, skyping family, and seeing friends. Of course like any other Londoner I would say “The pace of this city is crazy and I don’t have enough time!” And yet this newfound freedom makes me feel like there are too many hours in the day. I can’t explain myself to myself.
I feel exactly like on the long summer holidays in high school where I would wake up early and go through my homework and daily tasks all by lunchtime and then feel slightly guilty and bored the rest of the afternoon. Am I a workaholic? Possible, I guess. Or maybe it’s a learned behavior from the culture we live in, where it is engrained in us that idleness is well, wrong.
Maybe I just need some time to adjust to the pace of freelance life? Whatever it is, I sort of feel like a lion in a cage so I hope that it passes soon. I hope you won’t mind this slightly more personal post about getting cabin fever but I always try to be honest here and I thought that maybe this is something some of you might have gone through too.
Thank you for reading!